Alone With Animals
2012, 11x14 photographs and text
It was nice to feel invisible, like I had stumbled upon a play that had been rehearsed for decades that I simply got to watch. I became witness to its repetition, significant changes, and its cast. So I drank beer outside with all the men because no one could stop me and tell me that it wasn’t going to be fun to live out my fantasy in their reality until it was too late. But the mask of indifference was fashionable so I wore it, too. I was always being led along by someone to view the scene that had been viewed countless times before me. This often left me alone with animals.
Disconnected From Family Efforts
Docents
When the Night Comes
The Underground Current
Connection to Saturdays
VIP
Vista of Escape
Stunned and Speechless in My Haunting
Virgin Forests
Volatile Leadership
Confrontation with worship became commonplace, as if with exray vision I could detect the desire for wealth and freedom behind every closed door. At times I avoided the outdoors where my brain conjured demons. I read about a student who fried eggs over a WWII Eternal Flame monument honoring fallen soldiers and commemorating the Soviet victory of Nazi Germany. Her performative gesture led to being arrested by a group of men wearing balaclavas. My flames instead were lit in conformist fashion in spaces commemorating the crumbling of the Soviet victory of Ukrainians’ psyches.
Primal Urges
Breakfast With a Heavy Head
Details of Preservation
Gentle Steps
Rules of the Stone Faced
Everyday Power
Darcy
Slavic Chic
New Norm
Quest for Solitude
Dangling & Delicate
Experience and Delicacy
A supposed archeologist told me that my profile looked like that of an ancient statue from Western Ukraine. That specific connection to the land removed any notion of being exotic. Around me, though, not only was the Dniper River magical as I had learned through folklore and myth, but it was as if from every crevice in the ancient streets and soils sprouted enigmatic experience and ferocious delicacy.
Bearing Apathetic Witness to Playful History
Performing the Flame
Myths from the West
Live Free in the Wild Steppes
Impenetrable Legacies
Allowed to Leave
Exray Workship
His Thoughts of Me
Return With My Own Secrets
Motherland
Nothing Holy